Sunday, July 25, 2010

CANT LIVE WITHOUT IT

dear diary (which is not private at all,lol )

tmorrow ill be heading to lkw ,finally the time hs come! kind of nervous -.- pretending to chill ,lol. but these aren't the reason why im writing this.actually im such a mess right now, i couldn't think properly and i swore i wnted this to end before who knows whts cuming but unfrtunately it didnt. so i hv to deal w this when im stdying,duh im sure its guing to bother me a lott! hateee it. but couldnt blame all of it ,i shud blame it on me since im the one who let it in on the first place but anyhow im glad to do so, (headache-.-) well wht i mean is if i dnt let this guin in my head i wont be happy as i am before, so yeah it did made me happy once but not now, hoping it would again (!) most probably you wont undrstand wht i am talking bout aite? tht's great for you to not knowing the real situation is :). only me who knows the drama,lol. haishh im such a hypocryte , not to others but to myself . pretending tht evrything is fine as it looks like. *fake smile. see? i am hypocryte -.- , soo as i mention before, im sad . and i really wish tht whts on my mind rite now could come true soon. the faster the better ! pleaseeeee, i need this. i dnt wnt to loose it again , omgeeeeeeeeeee !actually i cn hv it back BUT if i do tht, this wont give any lesson, and it might happen again, so as much as i hate to wait fr it, i must do smthing fr the sake of us.ill let my ego side do the job ,-.- well duh just hope fr the best, or else ill crack ,really nt a big fan of it (!) ---.---

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